Perspective

My husband Terry started a blog as well. I am so happy about this because I cherish his thoughts and glean from his wisdom and to see his heart in journal form allows me to get a deeper glimpse of him. Today he talked about living in the now and how he thinks he may do the same as me, as far as not living in the now goes, but just in a different way. We continued the conversation in person when he got home....he was commenting on me on how I live in the past homesick for past events. What he thinks is interesting is that I long for a past that actually didn't exist. For example...when Presley was born, it really wasn't an easy labor (the picture is meant to show how not easy it was...exhausted doesn't describe it!). In fact it was the most painful delivery, and recovery. Yet I experienced a strong longing to be in labor and deliver her once more so I could experience thins glorious, wonderful and painless??? event again. So, I got to thinking that this is true and why do I do this. I think I do it because the past, as difficult as it may be is predictable, but the future is not, and its scary. That's where the negative side comes out. Its not even that the future can be scary, it will be scary. And again, I feel the nudge of the Holy Spirit gently correcting me. "For I have plans for you says the Lord....to give you a future and a hope". What a loving Father I have...what a fool I, we can be. Yet he always there, faithful in His promises and consistent and predictable...all the things a child like me needs while I stumble through life.