I think I said it in passing a week or two ago, "my family". I know that when we got married Terry and I were a family, but there is something very different about us now. I always dreamed my family consisting of children. But it wasn't until last week when I heard myself say my family needs to spend time together...and behind that simple statement I felt such a sense of completion, wholeness and warmth. I know that the Lord has much more for me to do, as well as me to learn. But I don't feel such a sense of longing like longing to be married, having kids and so on....you know, the struggle for contentment. Once again, I just feel so blessed by these gifts of my husband and my daughter.
Also, last night we went to our annual Harvest Fair at church (Thanks SARAH!!) and I sat there holding my very tired baby after a crazy day at work. She was dressed in her little lady bug suit, her calves cold because she outgrew the costume. As I bundled her almost asleep body close to mine with a cozy blanket I took in the scene. Children everywhere, families having fun, great music. I could see my husband working hard cooking for the event across the way. There was fall everywhere...that's another blessing our church family. We don't know each and every person, some were very close to, but all of us share a common bond. I love that my daughter will grow up in this, I never had it. I hope she appreciates this type of family.
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Thank you Kathleen. I needed to read this today! I love you and your lady bug!
I LOVE YOU KATHLEEN! PRESELY GETS CUTER EVERYDAY! READ MY BLOG OK?
Hey Lady! This is too complicated an answer for just a comment, but for me growing to have a heart that is peace in all circumstances is a deep struggle it may just be me, but I watch my mom whose has struggled all her life, be at peace not an edge and I asked her, and she said my time with the Lord, she rises early to pray and goes about in her quiet way doing what she needs to do to get done. Steadfastness, praisisng the Lord is spite of circumstances. That is how you lose the " edge" I am not very good at it yet... :) love you too!
i agree with you so much, kathleen. as i looked across the harvest fair, i thought to myself, "i'm so glad my daughter will get to grow up with this." although we don't all know each other, we are a family, and that is something very unique and special. praise God!
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