Random...

I want to blog more because I love looking back at Presley's blog. It brings back all of these great memories. I love that it's a journal, and since I am not so great at writing in a journal, this is perfect!
Trent is 6 months today! In some respects, the time has crawled and in other ways the time has flown. The first few months were pretty tough. I remember blogging when I was pregnant that I didn't think I would get hit with Post Partum Depression with this Pregnancy because I knew how to prepare myself. I was wrong. Unfortunately Trent just simply had a tough start. He does spit up alot and projectile vomit (and still does a lot!), that could have been the problem, but he just seemed not ready to be here. I had issues with my milk supply in the same way I did with Presley in having too much supply. I know that it is a good problem to have to much, but when you have too much you are at risk for having too much fore milk and not enough hind milk. The hind milk is rich and fatty, easy on the stomach and takes longer to digest. But I think that the PPD that set in, in the second week after a really tough week of maybe 7 hours total in the whole week, is what made dealing with the adjustment of our new baby tough. I am doing really well today! However, talking about it with people, getting help when people offer, making practical changes and trying to LIVE at the feet of Jesus is what I tried to do to get out of it. I still have some hard moments, but I am getting through it. I strongly desire to help other women who struggle like I did (and do!) I never had to go on medication, I was afraid that if I started I would never get off. Also, in my family and my own personal history of being a pill popper with advil, benadryl etc. , medication leads to addiction a lot of times. The bottom line was that in the darkest moments when I could COMPLETELY identify with David in the Psalms when he felt so alone and cried out for God, God sustained me. I feel like he reached down and in his grace and mercy pulled me out of a deep dark pit that I just couldn't do myself. He has been so faithful to me, so loving.
So today, On January 5th 2010...Presley is 2 1/2, Trent is 6 months, I am home with my kiddos and really adjusting into our new life. I realized over the weekend after spending some time with a friend who is a teacher that I just went through a HUGE change. Quitting my job for good, and staying home is big. I used to be able to control so much...but when I try to control my kids schedule for example, I fail. It doesn't go the way I want it to!!! God is teaching me a huge lesson on control...I think at heart I am just a stubborn spoiled brat and need to grow up!!
I didn't realize what a people person I was!!! WOW...I totally am, just didn't know it before because I was always around people. Being home every day and not seeing much of the outside world is strange and even hard sometimes. But it will also change when Trent is a bit older.
That is all for now...