If there is one thing I could change about myself right now, it wouldn't be the pregnancy weight I gained, or the amount of sleep I'm getting. It wouldn't be my job or the amount of money we have. It would be the ability to stop and enjoy now. All my life I have either longed for the future to come or the past to come back...as well as longed for the past to leave my memory. I can't see to live in the now. This is something I pray about constantly because it feels as though life, the wonderful life that God has blessed me with is passing me by!
I do have pockets where I am able to sit back and take it all in. Like when I got married, and the first few years of marriage...but right now with a 2 month old baby I find the days slipping out of my hands. It could be that this is the first time for motherhood for me, or that I'm too tired, or that its kinda tough right now and I am looking to the future when it might get easier....that's when I realized that it's mainly the last part. When things are difficult for me in life, or even uncomfortable my instinct it to fix it and make it better. That's is when I start longing for the past or future.
I know that the Lord does not desire for me to live the life he gave me this way. Especially that through Christ I have joy, peace and comfort. He bears all my burdens...yet the enemy loves for me to live in a state of regret or longing.
So for today I am going to fix my mind on Christ. He is my strength, my joy and my peace. He is the reason I was created and when things in my life might be uncomfortable or even unbearable, I need to run to His feet and rest in Him.
I do have pockets where I am able to sit back and take it all in. Like when I got married, and the first few years of marriage...but right now with a 2 month old baby I find the days slipping out of my hands. It could be that this is the first time for motherhood for me, or that I'm too tired, or that its kinda tough right now and I am looking to the future when it might get easier....that's when I realized that it's mainly the last part. When things are difficult for me in life, or even uncomfortable my instinct it to fix it and make it better. That's is when I start longing for the past or future.
I know that the Lord does not desire for me to live the life he gave me this way. Especially that through Christ I have joy, peace and comfort. He bears all my burdens...yet the enemy loves for me to live in a state of regret or longing.
So for today I am going to fix my mind on Christ. He is my strength, my joy and my peace. He is the reason I was created and when things in my life might be uncomfortable or even unbearable, I need to run to His feet and rest in Him.
1 comment:
I like what you wrote. It is very encouraging. That is what I feel like the theme for my life is right now: trying to live in the now and not worry about the future or regret the past. Love it! Keep going!
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