Today Presley had her second round of shots. I, being a first time mom, wasn't prepared and didn't know that she was going to get them. We spent 2 hours at the doctors today just waiting to see the doctor and then an additional 40 minutes. Presley is such a good baby.
When the nurse administered the shots and Presley started to cry, I nestled my face as close to hers telling her its okay over and over. I was kissing her while she was crying. Tears were pouring down her face. I kept wanting to convey to her somehow that I wasn't trying to hurt her, that this was good for her. I wanted her to know that it is because I love her that I allow this pain. There was a deep sadness in my heart that she could not understand this.
Oh....doesn't that sound familiar? During the commotion, I could feel in my heart somewhere that Christ must feel the same way. Holding us through our pain. How many times do we ask God "why are you allowing me to suffer like this?". Even though I think we can experience situations where we can be in God's shoes, so to speak, it still often times hurts so much that we can't see it for what it is...Just like mothers and fathers, God allows us to hurt because in the bigger picture it's good for us.
2 comments:
Oh, honey, those shots are so hard! I am so sorry. BTW, love the new look of your blog! You are a brave mama!
Kathleen,
Isn't it amazing how parenting allows us to see the heart of God much more clearer than before? I am still amazed at His divine plan in having children. I pray this is always the case for you and Teri as you grow as parents.
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