I feel like my heart is in constant motion. I always have a list going of what I have to do that has been on the back burner (like thank-you cards), cleaning I have to do, boxes to empty, calls I need to make and ways that I could bring in the extra income necessary so I can stay home with Presley. My husband has an awesome job and an awesome boss (props to Chad :) he works harder than anyone I know...but anyone that lives in So Cal, and bought a home after the boom knows how crazy it is to have one parent stay home.
In 4 weeks and 2 days I am going back to work. I have been off since April 27th! In the mean time Tasha, the interim director is running the center while I am away. She has done a great job, the only thing is I will have next to NO staff when I get back to work. This poses a challenge because I will have to work from 7:00am -8:30am and 11:15-6 and at least 2 days a week I will be working from 7am to 6pm when we have meetings.
How will this every be possible? How will it be possible when our childcare is in Fullerton? How will be possible without missing meetings and deadlines? How will I make dinner every night? How will I take care of my husband and my baby? How can I be away from my baby all day long when I am all she's known for the last 4 1/2 months? How is it possible to drop her off every day at 9:30, and pick her up at 6:45 make dinner, bathe her, feed her spending 2 hours a day with her???? How??? This is the impossible I was talking about on the last post...
It seems that God wants us to do the impossible. I can see why...this will usher me into a place of maturity that I have never been. A place of discipline I have never known. I will need to be organized, and ready to work hard...work hard at work, work hard at home, work hard at my marriage, work hard at being a mom, work hard at my walk with Jesus.
I am not in the river right now. I am not even in a desert. I don't know where I'm at...maybe I'll have a metaphor after this season is over. But that is what this is, a season and it won't last forever.
God will make a way, when there seems to be no way. He works in ways, we can not see, HE WILL MAKE A WAY FOR ME.
3 comments:
Kathleen, I love you and I love your heart. You do amazing things and you have an amazing little family. You three are so dear to our hearts.
Oh my goodness!
He will supply all that you need.
It does seem impossible, but He will give you that metaphor that you are looking for and it will be fitting.
I will pray for you. My heart breaks at the thought of you having to leave your precious Presley.
I love you my dear.
Thank-you Tiffany, my heart breaks too...and will break even harder the first day....God knows my heart and He will be not only with me, but with Presley.
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