Committed to the now

Deciding to blog again was a thought that truly came out of nowhere. Lately I have been feeling frustrated and a bit panicked about the pace of my life. Sunday-church, Monday-breathe from the weekend (and clean from the weekend), Tuesday-parenting class and Presley in pre-school...rush rush, Wednesday-more cleaning and youth in the evening at church, Thursday- Presley in pre-school, Friday-bible study and then BAM weekend marathon is here!!

And just like that one year is over...it's gone. And I guess the feelings come from knowing that 1) our children grow up and change and grow away 2) we all die at some point.

It can be rather disappointing!BUT most of all, something for my children to read, Presley to look at if she chooses motherhood or even to know a bit more about her mother and how much I loved them both with all me heart...the legacy of walking with God on a daily basis, needing Him for the hair pulling moments where you can choose joy and laughter over exasperation and anger. Journaling our life, my life a a Jesus follower in a uncertain road where trusting in Him is the only way. 

So I had an idea! One of the reasons I feel so panicked is because I am horrible about writing thank-you notes, making scrap books, and anything that requires TIME...because I don't have any extra of that. But I do enjoy being on the computer...so voila! The idea to blog where I could upload pictures, type and not write and allow it for family and anyone who cares to see it was born.

Sweet (rare) Trent kisses right after he woke up and was groggy...

Presley's first day of pre-school!

Trent caught red handed with my mascara....everywhere but his eyes!

Trent's first number two in the toilet! Since then...his ONLY number two in the toilet...

Making her oat flour so that I can make her low gluten pancakes

Awwww....sibling love!

Arts and crafts

This is Trent's big thing right now...steal a bag of snacks and dump it all out

More evidence of snack stealing and vandalism

Cleaning up his loot

All clean!!!

So today....we started the day with making oat flour so that I could make pancakes for Presley. Oatmeal is very low in gluten so I grind it up, sift it and use it to make pancakes and other things with flour. Our day went pretty normal, we got out for just a bit to take Danielle to work and then to my moms to pick up gluten free flour and some old pictures for India that I am going to scan and post on facebook. We are really loving netflix.  I hated the commercials that came with sprout and nick Jr. AND the agenda that was subtly oozing into my kids brain- "buy me because everyone else has this" "buy me because you need me and won't be happy until you get me" and not to mention the new grown-up Dora that goes to a Shakira concert...so now we are really into veggie tales, pingu, dino dan (dvr'd) go diego go (dvr'd) and a couple of other things on net flix.  Came home and napped and then the craziness of Wednesday's with youth began. Dinner, dishes, bath and out the door.

THIS is why I am blogging...because all I really remember about Wednesday were the angry frustrated words as we were trying to get ready and no one was listening to momma-now I have proof that it wasn't all bad!

Some things I am working on and praying for are 1) God given patience...I need to teach more with patience and grace instead of control and bark orders 2) expose them to more activities...I think Trent especially is bored 3) pray more!!!